my christmas wish list.

xbox 360
call of duty: world at war
grand theft auto
nhl 2009

in the past 2 weeks i've gotten both. a) a credit card .... and b) a cell phone. weird.

as for life.. it's going well. still enjoy my job, enjoy the people i work with. i've been starting to experience new things and hang out with a few new people. it makes me excited for the future, that's for sure. not to mention.. hanging out with some old faces this upcoming weekend... yay.

im valentine-less, which for some reason this year.. kinda sucks? i donno, but being alone on valentines always seems shity. sure i save money, but i donno it'd be nice to do something for a girl.

i cant wait to go bowling on friday, and to hang out with chris and shay on saturday... its been far tooo long.

but 3 things to be happy bout...

a. i am off on family day.. haha awesome!
b. i have the new born ruffians album... it's amazing.. it leaked. whateves.
c. i have the new cons album... refer to b. :D




ps. you know what would be amazing.. to get like.. a msg from someone.. anyone.. female..tomorrow letting me know that they have a crush on me... hahaha KEEP DREAMING :D

so. lets see where i am. still working at sobeys. life is good there. constant hours.. consistent pay checks.

last night we had our staff christmas party. i got way drunk. drank a lot of whiskey. it seems to be my drink of choice these days either straight up or with ginger ale. at about 11:30 i tried coming home, but i got caught and convinced to stay, one of my managers husbands bought me like 3 drinks. finally when i got home, i passed out on the couch. this morning i felt still drunk.

some people that i wished would be there weren't so that sucked, but i made do.


i'm starting to feel really out of touch with the ford plant. i'm getting older but it isn't, it's getting younger. i'm sick of being around 15 year old drunk kids puking their faces off and then no one caring. whatever happened to the ford plant being about the music, now all it seems to be about is partying.


well enough about being a downer. i am in love with the movie juno. i have watched it about 8 times this weekend alone. everything about this movie is soo real. not to mention ellen page is absolutely gorgeous.

i want to be someone's cheese to their macaroni. haha

anyhow. im going to see wintersleep on thursday. my friend christine asked me if i wanted come, so what the hell.

i work with said person that wasn't at the christmas party tomorrow, goodness i've missed her. :D

haven't talked to anyone since new years.

i work lots, and i like it.

my heart hurts.

Wow! I still have one of these? Cool.

The life of Kyle Rose, is a dull one.

Nothing exciting has been happening lately. I work 35 hours a week at a grocery store, in which I actually enjoy working at. I have started paying back my student loan. I am going to have a baby brother come January. I'm buying a new laptop within the next week. Things are okay, dull, but okay.

I don't have many friends, and the friends I do have, things seem to be fading. Not that Im upset about anything, I just wish I had someone to hang out with and what not. It feels as if I haven't been able to meet anyone new in forever. Don't get me wrong, I love the ford plant and I love my friends just with the Ford Plant I haven't been able to hang out with old friends or meet anyone reasonably new.

I've been finding myself hanging out more and more at Williams in the Market Square. It's just so convenient.

Tonight, We might be going to West111.. I hope.. Im just on my way to call Scott to see what the dealy-o is.

so it's been awhile since i last wrote anything in this thing. basically because nothing has really happened in my life. well other then the fact i've been working basically 9-5 monday thru friday. which is nice, it isn't great money but its a steady job?

this weekend was good, good on so many levels.

for an unadvertised show on friday, the turnout was really great, and i saw so many old faces that i have missed dearly. saturday, my best friend kimberly came and picked me up so i could hang out with her in kitchener and so we could go to pumpkinfest and drink our faces off.

we started drinking at 5:00.. we weren't to go out till like 10. let's just say, kyle was drunkso. i quit drinking at like 8:30 because i was scared i wouldn't get in to the place we were going because i was so drunkso.

we went to oktoberfest.. we drank beers.. we danced to walter osneik.. the pokka guy. ran into someone from high school who bought us beers then took off.. drank some more.. ate some pizza.. it was great. when we were leaving, we decided to walk home, however we had no idea it was a monsoon.. within 3 seconds we were drenched head to toe. luckly we were able to catch a cab.. where she proceded to wash my clothes. while they were in the wash we played guitar hero 2 and went in the hot tub.

it was crazy good fun. i had such a blast.

yesterday.. was thanksgiving at my dad's. turkey.. ooh turkey.. and hangovers.. ooh headaches.. i managed to get through the day. came home thinking i was staying for the night, until i got an email about rodeoike.. since i didn't have much money left.. i finished the 26er of rye i started on saturday.. and went and sang.. i sang lightning crashes by live.. and band of gold by freda payne..

this weekend gets 3 gold stars.


best part is now.. only 4 days until next weekend :D with two amazing shows on saturday and then me heading to toronto on sunday again to hang out with rhiannon.. i cant friggin wait.

today. there is something about today that is just shitty.

i just feel so sad. at the beginning of the week i was so looking forward to friday, and then when the day came.. i just got.. sad.

it was a very unexpected sad. i was supose to hang out with meg, but things happened and we weren't able too. it's no ones fault.. i didn't think it would be a big deal.. but as my day went on i got really sad that we couldn't and didn't hang out.

i just don't understand myself sometimes.

i don't really know what to say.

things were so great today or yesterday now.

butt.. this world really frustrates me at times.

i just hope things are still good.

i cleaned my room.


here it is.





oh and.. i wish i could paint the walls are something gah. i hate white.

the extra monitor just sitting in my room is for my laptop.. i have an adapter for it. :)

so i had an interview today. at zehrs.

why is it that at job's i don't want, i always have the best interviews? i don't understand it.
if there is one thing i do like about interviews, it is explaining that the ford plant is a job and what i do at that job.

on an even better note, i just had the best parfait of my life. it was a mixed fruit parfait. and it is making me want to eat granola and yogurt a lot more.

so i've decided that tomorrow, im going downtown adventuring. im going to bring my camera and take some photos and enjoy the hot summer weather, make a trip to the library and clean the ford plant. it's going to be such a great afternoon. i think i need a good afternoon like that.

yes, yes i do.

i heard the arcade fire do the best cover ever yesterday, and i never want to stop listening to it. it blew me away.


update:
zehrs called me back, offered me the produce position. gah i don't want to work more produce, and they said id only be getting up to 10 hours a week. which puts me in the same position im already in at sobey's. efff that.

wow, i almost forgot i had one of these. weird.

i've been working at sobey's for the past month or so. they are not giving me any hours which has led me to believe that my manager hates me. oh well, it's a job for now and it keeps my parents off my back.

i feel as if i am in this rutt. i am not quite sure why, because things have been really great lately yet i still seem a tad depressed?

i've been limiting myself to my friends. i've always been a really insecure person and therefore when it comes to hanging out and spending time with them, i don't want to over stay my welcome or i think they are sick of seeing me.

however, things have been okay. i have met a few new individuals that i really enjoy talking to and being around. so i have been happier, but i'm lame and just end up wanting to talk to them more. i think it could quite possibly be because i have no "best friend" figure in my life anymore. kimberly moved to kitchener, and for the past 2 months we have spent one day a week hanging out and now thats gone. somewhat shitty.

one thing that bothers me is how a certain individual continues telling people i have yet to meet these horrible things about me and making me out to be the biggest creep ever, when in fact it's complete opposite. i don't know what the deal is with that.

i have however started talking to this really cute girl, and we are trying to make some plans to hang out which makes me happy because id really love to get to know her better and stuff. yayy!
the best part is no one knows who it is, and i'm keeping it that way.

uhh so yes.

im in brantford.
working at sobeys on average 8 hrs a week which blows, yet i still end up having money.

today i started subletting my room in oakville for 2 months. i paid 495 a month for 12 months. and since im not there im somewhat getting an investment back. a girl just moved in for this month and next and is paying me 425 a month.. which isnt too shabby.

i ended up giving my mom like 150 for room and board.

the rest will be split 80 million different ways.. actually.. im going camping this weekend so it wil be spent on that.

lets see what else..
oh i was published in exclaim. hugee news! haha
oh my computer that was in oakville that i wanted because it had my games on it.. well its pretty much dead. bummmmerrr..

life is okay sometimes, other times it sucks.
i haven't met a girl who ive had an instant connection with in sooooo long.. it sucks because its always so refreshing but lately.. it just hasnt been happening.

two cars were found in london england filled with explosives yesterday.

a car today drove into the glasgow airport.


the end of the world beginning?

quite possibly.

yesterday was really really great.

market, friends, laughter, sunshine, goodies, picnics, lemonade, squirels, banana chips, walks, photos, librarys and movies.

i haven't had a day like that in such a long time. i truly hope there are more to come.

i learned so much yesterday as well, i cant wait to learn more about these wonderful people.

so much has taken place in the past little while.
great friends of mine were married, and i couldn't be happier for them. i got a job, im actually a working man now, even though it hasn't been much yet. i work at sobey's in west brant. school has been over for over a month, but saddly i got the letter saying i havent completed my course. so eventually in the next year i have to take a stupid gen ed course so i can get my diploma. i've been hanging out with my dear friend kim again, and its been great fun times, we went to warmingtons bistro the other day, i hadn't been there in over a year because of their lack luster hours.. but it was soo well worth the wait.

ford plant wise, i feel this great like empowerment now that im done school. im able to be at every show, which is something im extremely happy about. (sobey's has graciously alowed me to have friday and saturday nights off, because of my ford plant commitments.) i got a bike for my birthday, a really sweet one. i haven't rode it much yet, but i love it. im feeling so good lately, so empowered, getting out of that lazy slump i had been in. there are still a few things i need to work on, like losing some of my tummy.. im sure once i start doing that life will come together and seem perfect.

right now i feel that it is the only thing holding me back from my dreams. which isnt a big thing to get over, i just have to find the will power. and.. once i start losing it, i'll gain more confidence. etc.

im also at a point right now where i want to become closer with my family.. you know.. like cousins you never see ever except once every 5 years or so. we have a family reunion coming up in august that i'd very much like to go to, and a wedding.

but at the same time i want to strengthen friendships, and spend more time with those who i enjoy being around. josh and laura, scott and sam, donna, nadine and trevor, tim, and everyone else out there. we really need to come together and bond this summer i think. because lately it seems that everyones off doing their own thing... which they are entitled to do, i just miss the big group hang outs and adventures.

i miss hanging out with brandon and angela and amanda too.
it seems i'll go through a period of like 2 weeks where we'll hang out non stop.. and then we wont hang out for another 2. its really weird.. and right now we are in that slump.

i tell you one thing... it is the weirdest feeling to be done school. i dont know if im weirded out by it or scared.. but like come september.. i dont have school.. i no longer have to commit my days to schooling.. which is a weird thing especially since for the past 17 years all ive been doing is school. i guess i feel as if.. i dont know what to do now.. i went to school.. i love photography but like i dont think im nesscarely ready for a career just yet. im older yet i still feel so young.

weird.

anyhow.. friday will bring fun times with friends, im really looking forward to seeing everyone. it was definately a lonely weekend when i had to run the show by myself on saturday. and hopefully next week i'll get to hang out with laura.. and talkkk and bake pies? ive honestly never baked a pie in my life, so if we bake pies.. im excited to learnnn.

arent friends just the greatest thing ever?

oh yes.. and photos.. whoever wants photos we need to do them soon.. cause i dont wanna lose my edge. haha

the end.


ps. i cant stop listening to ohbijou.. their music just grants this like happiness over me, like being in love or something...

last night was arcade fire.
holy fuck.

so good. my seat sucked.. but i didn't care.. i rocked out and sang-along like a true champion.

here are some photos.

6 daysszzzsss!! like OMG haha

8 daysssszzzzzzsssssssss!!!

so its been awhile since my last post.

alot of things have happened.

i've completed my two years at sheridan. passed all my photo related courses with flying colours.. so i guess that means im a real life photographer.. like in the flesh. anyhow, my portfolio presentation went well, even though i wasnt to happy with the final outcome. eh screw them. im done.

my last weekend in oakville was great. made me come to think if every weekend was that fun then oakville would have been an alright place to live.

i moved back to brantford now, or am now living in brantford. havent so much moved my stuff back yet.

it's been so nice to see friendly faces, and have hang outs more often. you truly dont realize how much you miss someone until you dont see them often. since i wasnt around for my birthday, and never seem to be able to celebrate.. me and some close friends got together to celebrate on saturday.

beers and drinks, my thai, carnival, cotton candy, smiles, laughter.. it was all fine and dandy! my friends are great people.. i really apprechate them coming out and celebrating with me.

i ended up getting even more rediciliously plastered on saturday people started buying me shooters.. oh man i thought i was done for.

found out that im getting 472 dollars back in income tax.. sweet!

im going to see the arcade fire in excatly 2 weeks.

and.. my two good friends are getting married at the end of the month and im so rediciliously happy for them!
i hope i get to see and spend alot more time with them this summer.

so thats about it. thats my last few weeks in a nutshell.

im jobless and broke as hell.. but because of my different commitments this month i dont think i'll be able to get a job till next month.. just stuff i cant miss.. arcade fire, wedding etc.

oh and.. i need to find me a wife. haha thats my goal for the next year haha.. maybe not a wife, but meet a girl. summer romances.. hopefully this year is the year.

yesterday i did a photoshoot too.. that was fun.

anyhow.. im tired.. its night night time.

thanks for being awesome everyone.

happy birthday to me.

it always seems that i never get to celebrate my birthday.

it sucks.

stuck in craptacularoakville.